The Weaker Species!

(Disclaimer: The words below are just random thoughts from a paranoid mind...not intended to hurt the sentiments of anyone, dead or otherwise, other than the writer herself)

I am neither a theorist, nor an extremist, nor a feminist but a human being born as a woman. And there's no denying the fact that woman is the weaker species, weak in their brain, weak in their heart, weak in their strength. Most of them dominated by men almost everywhere. Few are those who can dominate men...(kudos to them)! If you ask me if I want to dominate men, I would say no! Saying no to this doesn't mean I want to be dominated, by men or by anyone (I have a clause "conditions apply" for domination)...I am talking about striking a balance, harmony between one human being and another.

The tendency to lean on, the need to be supported and be protected are ingrained in women's psyche since time immemorial. These deep-seated signs of weakness would be really hard to uproot. On top of these, sprinkle some tradition, culture, and values (pertaining to woman only)...how much burden a woman has to bear on her tiny shoulders (a size-zero-woman's shoulder would definitely crumble under these immense weight)!

And the men's psyche has been conditioned to provide a shoulder for the women to lean on, to support and protect them (For God' sake, anomalies are bound to happen...there's are billions and billions of people on this earth! And Of course, I am no expert in this).

Is this the way God/Nature intended? (I wonder how it all started...I couldn't help but imagine a world where the role has been reversed!)

If this was the way God intended, then He should have made the weaker species mute...letting them suffer in their voiceless misery. But no, God gave them voice! Is it too much to ask for a little bit of freedom, equality, justice, and respect for the weaker species? Although their brains, heart, and strength might be weak, they have the willpower to endure anything and continue their existence on this earth...

Even though men may be stronger species, they cannot exist without the weaker species!

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Travelling in Delhi Metro (Ladies Compartment Only!)

For someone who doesn't know how to drive (nicest way of putting I don't have a car :p ), hates haggling with the auto drivers, and someone who got tired of bus travel, Delhi metro has been a saviour. It's something that allows you to commute without interacting with a single soul. It comes and opens its doors, lets you in, and zooms you away to your destination. Once you enter the metro (the ladies compartment, LC), it's a different world altogether! There's the *Fashionista (without any guessing they are the NE girls ;) ) *Wannabes *Not so fashionables *Women with dhinchak saree *Stinky ones *Bitchy one (I just know they are bitching about me even though I have my ear plugs on...woman's instinct!) *Smartphones (no need to go to any store to check out the latest phones...every brand, every design can be found in the LC). It's like some commercial is going on! Is it without any drama in the LC? No...you can see all kinds of drama there... It's a big theatre...most of the lady commuters are in a hurry, especially the aunties! God forbid the younger sophisticated wannabe ladies should be found jostling... Some of the ladies would be jostling to find space to place their bum on tightly packed seats. (I had rather stand in a corner than compete with the bums, big bums, small bums, tiny bums, fat bums, and burn some calorie in the process!) And for the guys, the ladies compartment is a fascination for them. There are some who risk their life plus being fined just to whiz through the ladies compartment! There are some who stand just next to the LC. I am sure placing just their toe in the LC must make them high! Their heads would "obviously" be turned towards the LC...God and only they would know what goes on in their head... This is one of those times where I wish I had power like Sridevi in Nagin...One stare is all I need!

Travelling in Delhi Metro is no doubt a very entertaining ride for me!

Reflection!!!

It's been nearly 10 years since I left home. Many of my friends left before me. And many went back home before me...the reasons for their going back, I do not know and I never asked. Something made me go into an introspective mood today (otherwise I am a couch potato). I started thinking "why do people leave their home town?" Leave alone others, why did I? Was it or is it for a better education, better lifestyle, better everything? Has it become better or worse? In search of this better, have I become obscure? Did I achieve what I wanted to...I didn't and still don't know what is it that I want to achieve! Do I wish to go back? Deep in my heart, the answer is yes...but not yet! I feel almost everyone would wish to go back some day. Who wouldn't want to live in the safe haven of their palem and panthou! And when I do wish to go back, other than my family, what do I go back to? How's the situation there? If the situation is so bad, am I doing anything to change it? Do I have the initiative, the ability, the capability, and the courage to make that change? I guess not! Having said these empty words, my reflection dies and I go back to my mundane life...the mundane me!

Emptiness...Solitude...melancholy...

I feel so empty and so very alone...

I am surrounded by so many people yet feel so alone. I want to be alone in the truest sense...with no one around, just me and me...

Wish I had the means to go somewhere quiet and be alone, without any of these noise or thoughts, of moments lost, of hurt, of pain...

I seek solitude in its truest sense now...

Can't keep on going like this...

Have to have to have to get a new life...

No more tears left to shed, no more pain to bear, nothing left, only emptiness is my companion now...

Like Megamind said, "I feel so melancholy".

Unscrupulous Bastard!

Unscrupulous Bastard!
You Amaze me!

Just thinking about you!
Hurts me!

Just Looking at You!
Pains me!

Unscrupulous Bastard!
You Amaze me!

Not a single caring bone!
In You!

So Cruel!
Your Cruelty!
Unimaginable!
Unbelievable!

How many are you going to Hurt!
Unscrupulous Bastard!
I guess
You are Unstoppable!

In the name of Fun!
Your Fun!
So high a price
That others have to pay!

Unscrupulous Bastard!
You Amaze me!


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Best out of worst!

Don't Think!
Don't Remember!
Don't Feel!
That will make you just fine!

Think!
Remember!
Feel the hurt!
That may not make you feel better!
That will give the strength to move on...

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough!!!

I need to get out of this, or I will surely die.

A Maze with no exit...

God give me strength...

It cuts like a knife, then pour some chilli powder on it...

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!

Inside my Head!!!

Street kids...

Like any other winter day in Delhi, it is foggy today too. And as I was on my way to the office, I saw some street kids. I saw one small girl. She was wearing a frilly lacy skirt and was dancing away, without a care in the world, by the roadside. I could see another girl in the bushes going about her morning rituals with a sad face(as it happens this way only in India, you can see many unwatchable things only on Indian roads). Maybe the dancing girl was trying to cheer her up. Then further on the road, a boy wrapped all over in a woollen shawl was playing with a bulldozer. He was driving it steering the wheel this way and that way. He was making engine sounds with his lips. Such is the life of street children. I guess they were having fun.

When I saw them, I thought they don’t even know what their future holds. They are living only in the moment, enjoying every moment. They are happy or looked happy whether their stomach is full or not, whether they are warm or not. Or do they? I mean enjoy their life? Are they happy? I hope so...

Dream or no dream...

Do you believe in dreams? Not the one you dream when you are awake. I am talking about dreams you see while you are sleeping. Do they carry any significance or is it God’s way of warning you of the approaching events? Or is it just the rerun of past events that happened in your life? If you dream of only good stuffs, then you wish it is God’s blessing. If the dream gives you sleepless nights, you hope it doesn’t overrun into your daytime.

Whenever I see a vivid dream, I check out its meaning at the site http://www.dreammoods.com/

Till now, I can relate to all the interpretations (of my dreams). I have noticed that I dream frequently of those things that I don’t let go or I can’t let go. It seems I am haunting myself. There must be a way to flush out all these useless stuffs/thoughts/dreams from my system. The only thing is I have no idea how to!

There are people who study dreams to make sense of them and achieve a better understanding of them. I can say I am also one of them (with the help of the above-mentioned site). As I go through the process of studying my dreams, I realize I get to know of its true meaning or what it implies only when the crucial time is over. Just as it happens in movies…the FBI or the police officers arrive only when the climax is over. I am not doing it to master at the subject but to get a better perspective of what is happening in my life.

Some people don’t dream at all. I don’t know how they feel. They must sleep like a log. I don’t envy them. If I were to choose between a dreamless sleep and a sleep full of dreams, I would always choose the later anytime…I love dreaming!

Repercussions...

Have you ever done something which you regret? Not at that moment but the day after or a week after or a month after! It seldom happens with me. I try hard and take decisions that should not bring repercussions. But being born a human being, you can’t help but make mistakes and regret sometimes. And the day I feel regret, it feels as if the whole world is against me. The feeling is worse when you are not in your own motherland.

Well, I don’t want to delve into this feeling. I want to forget it and start anew. I myself made the decision and I have suffered enough. From now on, I will think six times before making a decision and leave no room for regret. And I will be a thorough professional from now on…Better start now than regret double!

What to do when u r bored

Getting bored is an illness. There may be many cure for it. But for me, there is no cure. I have become addicted to geeting bored. I got no better things to do but get bored. Even writing about this is making me bored. I am so bored that I don't know what to do about it...just get more bored.